my mood hasn't been good recently. i feel so down. i know my attitude has been rather bad. all due to my mood. i dunno what's wrong with me. i dunno who to tell cuz i dunno who'll understand when i myself dun understand. i just wanna explain to u guys. what u're seeing is my mood. not my attitude. i promise i'll try my best to hide my mood.
i lost temper at this person the most for the past few weeks cuz i alrdy told her to leave me alone. i know it don't give me the right to lose my temper but i really cannot take it when someone just stays there even after i ask him or her to leave me alone. i know myself. i have to be alone when im at the brim of losing my temper. still im sorry though she kept saying its nth.
i know who's been complaining abt my attitude. im sorry that u guys have to see the worst side of me cuz not everyone has seen it. or rather not everyone has the chance to see it.
but from now on.
no more flaring up. no more showing attitude. no more mood swing. even if there is i'll keep everything to myself. i'll give in and tolerate whenever i can. this way. im shutting myself out. but its so much better than ppl tolerating me. i cant stand knowing that.
i hate being alone. im starting to hate myself again.

it may be nth to her. but the feeling is just not good when we started out to be quite close and now we don't even talk much. well. maybe i'm just thinking too much but it weighs quite abit in my mind.