went shoppin for the last 2 days. hahahs. cleared quite alot of stuff le. lols.

- shoppin list

those done:

• shoes
• wallet (both thanks to someone. lols)
• belt
• clothes / top

now im left wid a shorter shoppin list=) hahas.

1. clothes / bottom
2. bag (maybe)
3. ...
4. ...
5. ...
6. last but not least ipod shuffle

went to marina square on thurs. quite long didnt go dere so its not that borin. hahas. went orchard yesterday. someone bought a levis jeans wor. lols. $100+. wow. hahahas. went home at 3 plus. AM. hahas. and i gotta wake up at 5 30am for work. omg. i slept for like less den a hour and i got dragged up by my very wonderful mum. gag. lols. jk. anyway. felt like sleepin for the whole 4 hours while i repeat the same action over and over again. to pack the food into boxes. lols. very nice job. AND... now im finally home. woohoo! eat finish den go shower.. and bed. here i come ! hahhaahs.

I MISS AMILIA TOO! hmm. and EELIN! =)

THINK BEFORE U SPEAK!! ARGHH!!!

that hurts. if u didnt alrdy noe. if it really doesnt matter. den im nv doing it again. that'll be the last time. dun regret. if u think its makin mi happier. IT IS! THANK U VERY MUCH!!! argghhhh!!! wad the FUCK! forget it.



EELIN. faster come bac. i miss u alrdy! AMILIA too. no one to chat or accompany mi when im bored or feelin down. hai.

the bbq yesterday was great except for the fact that it rained and i got like bitten by.. err.. hundreds of mosquitoes.? hhas. ohh goshh! im scratchin all over and let mi just pray that it will not bleed and leave behind some very ugly lookin scars. im freakin itchy now. just imagine there's this cream or wadever crap i can think of that can remove mosquitoe bites in an instance. wow. i'll love the person who invented it(: anyway. gotta thank ningsi for draggin mi to the bbq. if not i'll miss the fun. im glad i went. hahas.


she's the man is really nice. it tells us to persue our dreams all the way even though it meant breakin the rules. eh. actually that's not really a very nice advice. lols. anyway. ya. do the impossible. even though u noe u will not succeed. at least u've tried ur best. woahh! cant believe im sayin this. hahahs.



hai. guys. im not worth for u guys to do things that will make only make mi happy. think of urself. its really not worth it u noe. u guys said its worth doing things for someone u love. but ... hai. u guys done alot for mi. im really happy. but im afraid to make a decision. i dun wanna hurt anyone.



suddenly the thought of o level creepin nearer and nearer silently and quickily rushed into my mind. i've slack for like 2 whole years and i think its enough. is it so hard to make myself study? im reminded of my 30 mins a day self study for a few times. wad happen to it? i just couldnt be bothered. how bout my maths? i told myself over and over again that i gotta buck up and start studyin. the worse thing is i keep thinkin that i still hav the time and i delay and messed up again. see wad happen to my mid yr. i noe i did study. but it was last min. like its gonna be any help to mi. sometimes i just wanna giv up on everything. drop out. put a stop to every difficult stuff that i faced. but i cant. its just a way of avoidin problems. eventually it'll just sneak bac up and scare u. ohh wadever crap. all these rantings here is not doing mi any good. i just gotta start actin instead of just plain sayin.



i miss church (: i dunno why. after such a long time of not going. hahs. just rmb to pray and hope God can take away some of my problems. Amen.

did i do the right thing? WAD is the right thing?

its been so long since i cried this long le. why is life always so unfair? i dun wan to lose anyone. by leavin mi is not gonna make mi any happier. its makin mi worse. it seems like all my fault that everything changed. maybe without mi everything would not hav started. sorry eelin for draggin u in. this doesn't even involve u. yet u seem to be the busiest person here.


wad should i do now?

Above all powers,

Above all kings,

Above all nature and all created things,

Above all wisdom and all the ways of man,

You were here before the world began.

Above all kingdoms,

Above all thrones,

Above all wonders the world has ever known.

Above all wealth and treasures of the earth,

There's no way to measure what You're worth.

Crucified

Laid behind a stone

You lived to die

Rejected and alone

Like a rose

Trampled on the ground

You took the fall

And thought of me

Above all

im gettin more and more frustrated le. its gettin no wher with all the thinkin. so why am i botherin?