yes. finally i decided on SIM. went down to the school today. made the payment alrdy. such a big sum la. i promised my mum i'll work hard and i'll do it.
met up with yuwen and yushuang at bugis for steamboat. fish meatball hotdog are loves! ate quite alot today. so satisfying! hahas. too bad didnt get to watch movie today. night clique! another day okay? hahas. went back home as yushuang had to get back home at 12. haven been home early for these few weeks. i reached home at 11 plus today! LOL. im a good gal (:

im chatting with eelin popo now! been sooo long since i contact her. missed all her stories la. and she's updating me now.

no photos of yushuang yet

the girl who INSISTED she has a heart

i realised i've been blogging regularly these few days. not bad. hahas. my blog is alive again. just less photos. lazy to upload.

came home today after the tonning at yw place and i went out in the evening to meet them at woodlands. went over to pei's house to eat dinner as all of us are totally broke now. LOL.
reached ah wok at 10. only me and xerxes were doing closing and it was so freaking boring. i pratically grew cobwebs rotting there. can u imagine how bored i was. i only served 4 or 5 tables in total. pathetic. fell asleep on the transport on the way back. but im not tired now. oh crap.

im so fed up by the schedule problem. others can work for 2 or 3 days and i get to work 1 day only. WTH. den wads the point of me continue staying there to work. its just a waste of my time when im so free now. nvm. im looking for jobs now. its okay if i leave TSK. anyway with the big fuck 7 bucks per hour. they can easily replace me with some newcomer. the whole world revolves around money.

i seem to be seeing less of sweet family now. i miss u guys!

SEX AND THE CITY! i wanna watch this show. ppl organise a movie outing please :D

work was fun ytd. cuz there were fun ppl working with me. zimei natalie and amilia. there's so much food left over from the event ytd. we kept taking the food into the VIP room. lol.
received a call from yuwen during work. i ended up tonning with them again. went to sembawang to meet up with her yushuang binpei jiasheng and two of their frens james and caizhi. slacked at playground playing catching and some childhood games. LOL. slept over at yuwen's house after that. chatted and slept till noon.
saw the wallpaper on her com. the photos taken during her birthday. went there that day even though i dunno anyone. now started hanging out with them. time passes so fast. hahas
anyway i found a new night clique! happy :D

working closing later. hope the ppl working later will be fun too.

met up with xiuhui ytd. haven met her for like so many centuries. hahas. the last time i talked to her was at liwei's chalet. slacked at khatib mac for awhile and we went over sun plaza. met up with pei and yuwen. rotted there with spiderwebs all over. boring place. LOL
xiuhui went off to meet yeemay and we went over to causeway cuz i was meeting jessie and siaowei for dinner. brenda joined us for dinner too cuz she was at the library. initial plan was me jessie siaowei meeting for dinner and we ended up with 4 more ppl when xiuhui came to look for me again. lol. anyway. the more the merrier. they are fun to hang ard with. xiuhui jess and sw went off after that leaving the 4 of us. we went over pei's house to slack. yuwen decided to go over yushuang's place so me and pei went over too. didnt wanna go at first cuz i dun really noe her. but ytd was quite okay. didnt really feel out of place. hahas.
enjoyed myself with them :D

im home now! going to meet chun jin under her block tonight after the rest end work. gonna ton again. so im gonna sleep now.

library-ing with ting they all again tml. it really gonna be our current fav hangout place for now. HAHAS

green - siaowei's, black - pei's

spastic

went to jurong library with ting daryl and paul today. ting studied for her exam. the other two did paul's proj. i read books. hahas. been wanting to go library for quite sometime but there's no time. pool-ed awhile after the library closed. managed to catch the last train back. luckily we rushed up if not the train would have left.
we're going again next tues. due to the stupid schedule. im free from mon to fri. argh!

mr messy and me (:

ting and me camwhoring! (:

our viewtys!

i cant cross my leg! they kept kicking my slippers away. BIG BULLIES!

i think my mood's getting better. no more swings like the pirate ship. lol. anyway i promised to change. hope im doing better.
troubling over the school problem. having a hard time choosing between MDIS and SIM.
for MDIS. its cheaper. more flexible time. shorter duration. shorter travel time. but cert not that recognise.
for SIM. its much much more expensive. time not that flexible. longer duration. longer travel time. but cert is more recognise. i wanna persue a degree no matter wad. so i was thinking. it doesn't matter whether the diploma is recognised or not cuz more importantly its the degree. but im just afraid it will be difficult to get into local uni with MDIS diploma whereas with SIM dip it'll be easier.
someone HELP ME please?!

stupid TSK. made me so pissed just now. keep complaining overstaff and they keep hiring ppl. its so irrtating. i just get to work 2 days next week. for charcoal i can understand its situation now. but for ah wok i really don't get it. continue what they're doing and it'll only chase all of us away.
i totally agree with what eunice say. oh. nope. its P2. wahaha. she's gonna kill me. ZHU PENG GOU YOU! good one. hahahas
puppy. enjoy ur diving trip (:

was chatting with darling zimei just now. she sounded so stress. just hope that things will go well for her. im glad she feels better now (:
meeting tingting and the rest tml. i miss them!

met up with jessie and siaowei. fangru was supposed to come along but as usual the pig felt like sleeping. lol. denzel came instead. had no worries bout her not clicking with my frens. hahas. went to bugis and walked ard till siaowei came. had steamboat. yuwen yushuang and their two frens xavier and jiasheng joined us. jess and sw left first and after steamboat we walked to dhoby ghaut for tau huay and you tiao. pool-ed awhile and went back. actually they're quite nice but just find it hard to blend in. oh well. its just the second time meeting them. what to expect.

missed out on sentosa trip with my family. argh! nvm. next sunday.

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A real friend calls you after you had a fight.

A simple friend expects you to always be there for
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A simple friend wonders about your romantic
history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it!

A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your
problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.

A simple friend hates it when you call after
they've gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to
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A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your
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A real friend shoulder is soggy from your tears..

A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself
and doesn't feel even the least bit weird shutting your
'beer/Pepsi drawer' with her foot!

Jesse McCartney is soooo hot! i used to like him last time when he had the surfer-boy blond look. but he looks even better now. enjoy the video.


im glad i talked to everyone of them. at least i managed to sort things out. i'll change back to how i used to be like.

my mood hasn't been good recently. i feel so down. i know my attitude has been rather bad. all due to my mood. i dunno what's wrong with me. i dunno who to tell cuz i dunno who'll understand when i myself dun understand. i just wanna explain to u guys. what u're seeing is my mood. not my attitude. i promise i'll try my best to hide my mood.
i lost temper at this person the most for the past few weeks cuz i alrdy told her to leave me alone. i know it don't give me the right to lose my temper but i really cannot take it when someone just stays there even after i ask him or her to leave me alone. i know myself. i have to be alone when im at the brim of losing my temper. still im sorry though she kept saying its nth.
i know who's been complaining abt my attitude. im sorry that u guys have to see the worst side of me cuz not everyone has seen it. or rather not everyone has the chance to see it.
but from now on.
no more flaring up. no more showing attitude. no more mood swing. even if there is i'll keep everything to myself. i'll give in and tolerate whenever i can. this way. im shutting myself out. but its so much better than ppl tolerating me. i cant stand knowing that.
i hate being alone. im starting to hate myself again.

it may be nth to her. but the feeling is just not good when we started out to be quite close and now we don't even talk much. well. maybe i'm just thinking too much but it weighs quite abit in my mind.

thank you puppy for the treat at WDC. feel bad for letting him treat. i was expecting something from mac or something cheaper. enjoyed the chat. fate is coming. hahas.

went sentosa today with beloved jessie ho! missed her sooo much. didnt get the chance to really chat with her till today. we met delon limin eunice and their frens at vivo and we went in together. but in the end me and jessie decided to go tanning on our own so it won't feel so weird. got tanner. but still not even enough. im going again! hahas. met siaowei at vivo for dinner after that. another one i haven seen for quite awhile. went back at ard 9 plus as they're having sch the next day.
my mood went from good to lousy when i couldn't find anyone to acc me at all. meibin they all were at bugis having steamboat. i ate alrdy so didnt go down. delon was with his frens. my family was busy with their own stuffs, work, wadever.
saw jingsheng and taiyi at 838 and i sat down there to watch the matches. suddenly i miss the 838 ppl alot. used to spend everyday at the court with them. amilia eelin yeeling dewei jingsheng haowei ah kiang taiyi alvin haojie. how i wish things can go back to the past.

came back from liwei's chalet which is on mon and tues. there are the happy times and the not so happy times there. im just glad she enjoyed herself during the moment when it was just our family alone celebrating with her. she cried. hahas. as we couldnt sing the birthday song to her. we sang the friendship song by F4. the one she likes alot. the whole celebration was a surprise. im glad we pulled it off successfully. hahas. i just hope the unhappy things that happened during her birthday could be forgotten. anyway. we'll always be there for her whenever she needs us.

another thing i wanna mention. i think singapore drivers are NICE! hahas. i took a night rider one night and i only had a note. 50 bucks. emptied ez link and $1.90. the ride cost $3. so the driver told me to wait and change the 50 to smaller notes with other passengers. waited for a long time till there's this couple who came up the bus. they didnt have enough small changes so they gave me $1.10 instead to make $3. felt so weird taking money from strangers. anyway. the next thing is i was going home from fangru's house. i took 811. the same thing happened. i told the driver to let me down at the next stop. instead he told me its okay and to just sit down. alighted at chong pang after thanking him. i took a cab. the fare was $4.20. the uncle had no change for $50 note. so i used nets instead. the nets machine had problem. in the end. guess wad. the driver told me its okay too. i dun have to pay. i told him i'll go withdraw $20 for him so he'll have change. he just kept saying i dun have to. how lucky and unlucky can i get. lol. all because of the atm machine not being able to dispense $10 notes.

VENELYN FAITH my ex neighbour is coming back to singapore to visit from aus! im so HAPPY! cant wait to see her. its been 5 yrs plus since she left. i saw the Dr Dolittle 2 ad on tv just now and i thought of all her pirated vcds. hahas. used to go over her house everyday to watch. love the show charmed. she'd record every single episode. played with all her barbie dolls and pokemon figurines. i miss her! i used to not have freedom when i was in pimary sch. how i wish i was able to be like now last time. could have been able to go out with her. i used to stand at my door and shout 'come out' and she come over to my house. actually thinking back. it sounds kinda stupid. oh well. i still miss it.

yes yes amilia toh han li. i understand and i know. hahas. u and yang will be able go thru this obstacle together. love u loads gal! im just a phone call away whenever u need me.

is the sweet family staying 6 or 7?

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she's so pretty but she's a bitch.

i still like her. hahahas

i just found out from bp. u guys didnt noe that the sweet family is very important to me? i cant imagine u guys not ard me now. i am so used to seeing u guys everyday. the thing im not sure abt this friendship is not abt me thinking whether i should commit to it or not. its something else. believe it or not my heart is into this friendship alrdy. i will not let go unless one of u choose to.

im still getting used to not having my phone ring every night asking where i am and what time am i going home.

but i have to.

went out with bren on friday at clarke quay to have dinner at some jap restaurant. the food not bad la. will go there to try other dishes again. we went over to far east to meet chun jin after that cuz she ended work alrdy. slacked at hong kong cafe till fang ru denzel and amilia came. liwei came after that and we went to play pool to wait for bin di and vaal. watched doomsday. show not bad la. just quite gross. after that we decided to go dhoby ghaut to chat/ we ran and played catching all the way there. perspired so much la. first time playing till so crazy at town. but very fun. lol. took lots of photos of our family. now there's 7 ppl in it le. chun jin as our aunt aka my fat ass jie. lol. had breakfast at chong pang mac and i went back and had my beauty sleep. hahas.

slept till 10 plus at night and i went yishun to watch ironman. im sooo in love with ironman now! he rocks! lol. my favorite cartoon when i was young. after the show i met up with sweet family minus vaal. had some conflict due to communication breakdown. everything's settled alrdy thank goodness. i dun wan us to quarrel over such a small incident.
that feeling came back again ytd. even worse den ever. since mac till the driving at seletar. i just cant seem to get into them. there seems to be a barrier between me and them. just cant break thru. though they keep telling me everyone is as impt but those are still just words. just ytd i felt like walking out of the car and leaving them. everyone talked so much in the car ytd yet im sitting in the middle keeping silent. its hard to describe in words. forget it. i'll try hard not to show it out in front of them.
frankly speaking. sorry to say. i really dun like the 'pairing' system.

JESSIE SIAOWEI NINGSI i miss u guys! where are u all?

im getting freaking pissed by my internet. i wanna load my photos!

lets start with something happy first. amilia joined me at work! ytd was her first day. ah wok got slam ytd. should i say its lucky for her to get her first day so busy or unlucky? cuz she gets to learn the stuffs there faster. im glad im not that unfamiliar with charcoal anymore.

went sentosa with daryl paul tingting celine sandy xerxus uncle micheal and his daughter. i joined them late as i only got home in the morning after attending liwei's grandma wake. reached sentosa ard 1 plus. got slightly sun burned but im still not tanned enough. im going again! lol. met up with fang ru chun jin and her fren at somerset after that. shopped ard and i reached home ard 11 plus.

i got no idea why i wrote the last post. was feeling really down that day. sorry if i let anyone worry. sweet family tried cheering me up. it helped but i still feel this way. maybe it'll take some time before the feeling goes away. or maybe it'll just stays. esp thanks to bp. the effort to write such a long long post is deeply appreciated. im touched. loves. i can ans confidently i love all my frens. esp my close frens. but doesnt mean that that makes me anymore impt den how i am now.

liwei be strong. we are all there for u whenever u need us.