the bbq yesterday was great except for the fact that it rained and i got like bitten by.. err.. hundreds of mosquitoes.? hhas. ohh goshh! im scratchin all over and let mi just pray that it will not bleed and leave behind some very ugly lookin scars. im freakin itchy now. just imagine there's this cream or wadever crap i can think of that can remove mosquitoe bites in an instance. wow. i'll love the person who invented it(: anyway. gotta thank ningsi for draggin mi to the bbq. if not i'll miss the fun. im glad i went. hahas.


she's the man is really nice. it tells us to persue our dreams all the way even though it meant breakin the rules. eh. actually that's not really a very nice advice. lols. anyway. ya. do the impossible. even though u noe u will not succeed. at least u've tried ur best. woahh! cant believe im sayin this. hahahs.



hai. guys. im not worth for u guys to do things that will make only make mi happy. think of urself. its really not worth it u noe. u guys said its worth doing things for someone u love. but ... hai. u guys done alot for mi. im really happy. but im afraid to make a decision. i dun wanna hurt anyone.



suddenly the thought of o level creepin nearer and nearer silently and quickily rushed into my mind. i've slack for like 2 whole years and i think its enough. is it so hard to make myself study? im reminded of my 30 mins a day self study for a few times. wad happen to it? i just couldnt be bothered. how bout my maths? i told myself over and over again that i gotta buck up and start studyin. the worse thing is i keep thinkin that i still hav the time and i delay and messed up again. see wad happen to my mid yr. i noe i did study. but it was last min. like its gonna be any help to mi. sometimes i just wanna giv up on everything. drop out. put a stop to every difficult stuff that i faced. but i cant. its just a way of avoidin problems. eventually it'll just sneak bac up and scare u. ohh wadever crap. all these rantings here is not doing mi any good. i just gotta start actin instead of just plain sayin.



i miss church (: i dunno why. after such a long time of not going. hahs. just rmb to pray and hope God can take away some of my problems. Amen.