been studying everday for this week. felt so no life. everyday wake up study den sleep. and it repeats and repeats. went to sch with ave and bel ytd. wasnt productive. chatted alot instead. borrowed textbook from the lib and ended up carrying 4 heavy books home. argh.
some funny happened at the bus stop outside sch. me and bel was like taking photos and suddenly this guy stood beside me.

stranger: hi, can i make fren with u?
me: err... ( looked at bel)
stranger: im james. u are?
me: *blink* oh. felicia
stranger: oh nice to meet u. which course are u studying?
me: foundation now
stranger: oh i see. erm.. can i have ur number?
me: *hesitating* next time (lol)
stranger: er. will we have a chance to meet again next time?
me: well. if we are in the same sch maybe we will. see u ard.

and i turned to bel and continue our conversation. hahahas. such guys are so despo. maybe im an evil person? how does he even know just by looking at me? maybe im such bitch or whatever den he's gonna regret coming up to me. LOL.

haven been feeling happy. i rmb someone said friendship is like a bunch of ppl holding hands. u cant make sure others wont let go but as long as u know u urself will hold on. thats enough. now it seems like sweet family dun matter anymore. someone else told me. im alone trying to make changes. how is it possible. im just really disappointed.. actually other than SF. there's still a few other ppl. oh well.. maybe im just too used to having lots of ppl beside me.

i get wad u mean. but it just seem so hard. seems like there's lesser and lesser common topics. or should i just keep calling more often? glad u found one really good fren.

one thing happy though. dinner ytd was :D