kinda have no idea how to start blogging. had econs today. the starting was okay. till the part he taught till break time. it was like. er.. what is he talking abt. juli and me both stared blankly at the piece of paper with the graphs on it. went up to ask the lecturer and finally we got something. yeah i know i was kinda quiet in school today. just felt abit out. everyone just start forming that circle and i just stayed at the back. oh well. nth much to elaborate on. they went for dinner at clementi sumohouse and i planned on heading home. halfway back weiheng asked if i wanted him to accompany me for dinner. wasn't really in the mood to eat but i know i still gotta grab some food so i agreed. we ended up at AMK sumohouse. hahahas. funny. it was then i realised i was really hungry. i haven been eating much and regularly this week. he sent me to the bus stop and went off for his teaching session. i love bus trips now. get some time alone and think through stuffs. though i think i shouldn't be thinking so much. i'll make myself more frustrated. got home and i wanted to sleep so i wouldn't have the time to think. i ended up in front of the com - . - hahas. dearest eelin called at 11 and asked if i wanted to meet downstairs. normally i would have rejected but i agreed instead. im glad i did. its been awhile since i saw her. and i needed someone to talk to. oh ya. before that siaowei was on the phone with me. thank you girl. u managed to cheer me up (: went to the coffeeshop to eat and guess wad we did after that? we bought beer and two packets of ice and we went up to the ntuc carpark to drink. u guys must be wondering. then wad about the cups or glasses. we used the barley bottle! hahahas. photos will be up later. surprisingly eelin asked if i wanted to drink. that coming out from eelin is definitely a shock. after that we went over to outside abc and chatted. sankar came over and i went off after awhile. at least i came home with a lighter heart.

which leads me to talk about friends. though now i dont place friends that importantly till i neglected the rest that matters to me. friends are still precious to me. there's these few really good ones that I believe they know who they are, and i love them as much as i love my family & that someone. i would never never want to lose them, and will definitely want to keep in contact all the way. They are people whom I'm really interested in their lives, want to share with them the happiness or sadness in my life, be with them during the different moment of times.

They are people whom i want to spend my life with. In all, they are people who are very important to me and i really treasure and love them.

I believe within good friends, there will be a special trust between them, a very mutual kind of understanding and both will be very honest with each other even during difficult times or so. And when maintaining contact with each other, its really a Two-Way thing, must be really mutual i feel, so that both will feel both around, and feel appeciated and treasured by both sides.

Also, there will be a tendency to desire what is the best for the other, sharing each other's achievements and feel for each other.

I love my friends, and they are special to me in every other way. :)

bottomline.. i thank those who are standing by me now when im so troubled. not finding it a chore to nag and console me. i love u guys!


restricted myself from typing and sending the whole day. how long can i keep this up? the feeling of having the person in mind for the whole day and cant do anything about it is awful.