my blog's quite dead now. better update now. haa.

last few days were horrible. started sch ytd. felt weird. out of place. felt like a intruder in their class. it just sucks. nearly make up my mind not to go today. but obviously didnt larhh. still went. felt much better today. hope it gets better tml. wondered how vincent survived that one whole yr in my class. but those in my class very friendly. so it was no problem for him. wadever.. hope i'll get into republic. crossin my fingers now and prayin hard.

hope everythin gets back on the track soon. wonder how long it will take. FUCK.

happy sweet sixteen AMILIA! finally can watch nc16 le wor. ur greatest dream rite. she got a big big big taz and sly. so jealouus. LOL.

The rain, just never seems to bring the joy,
I feel the same everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left the mark
all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark
Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,
I'd never let you go
The way, you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything on that day
I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance to share the sunset our one last romance
Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,
I'd never let you go

i still feel very miserable. i cant help it. things are just different and i feel that its going to continue changin.

thank u RALF and EELIN. at least u two listen to mi. feelin so much better.

last few days were terrible. results were horrible. didnt sleep and eat well. thanks to siaowei jessie eelin and amilia for being there with mi.

sat under yuan's blk last night to eat and chat wid eelin. waited till mornin and eelin went to buy sandwich for him to eat on the way to sch. in the end. he continued sleepin despite the morning calls she made.

went to watch the juniors match this afternoon. lost to phs but they played really well. so u guys dun be too sad. next year try ur best to get into the finals again. even though coach wanted third place. lol. after that went to play pool wod amilia jessie and siaowei. played quite okay today.

saw a hamster runnin loose at the eleven floor on the way home just now. it was just like my thoughts. i have no idea wad i am thinkin. just felt really down and felt like cryin. eelin asked mi think of ways to solve. but the only problem is i dunno wad problems i have. and that is fcukin frustrating. everythin sucks. tml's results gonna sucks too. gotta prepare for the worst now. life seriously sucks now.

think only eelin's craps gonna cheer mi up. will call her later.

HABITS.

when u take away the 'h' , there's still abit.
& when u take away the 'a' , there's still that bit.
finally u take away the 'b' , and u're still left with it.


fine line between this and that
when things go wrong i pretend that the past isn't real

其实你很爱他 对我的惩罚 说你没有想他 是可怜我吧

我已没有借口 只能放手 不能奢求 你说爱我

其实你很爱他 他很温柔吗 其实你很想他 就说出口吧

我已不想多说 呜住耳朵 不想再次听到你说 你很爱他

this song is by f.i.r. intro to mi by eelin. find the lyrics really meaningful. hahas. she sang it at the k box. i wanna thank the 3 of u for being wid mi on my birthday. tot i will be quite a boring day. hahas.

and one more thing. i pray that ah kiang will recover and get well soon. i noe u can do it. fight the disease and win the battle. hope to see u on the court running really fast again. JIAYOU! must be postitve. remember we are all here for u.

hoho. im back to blog. just changed the song of my blog. chao xi huan ni by my favorite band, fahrenheit!! went to their autograph session last sun and mon. so surprised to see shihui my volleyball junior there too. we were packed like sardines in can together with the crowd. lol. imm was so packed wid ppl that u cant move a single step for 15 mins. thats only for those passin by imm. for those who were queuein. i think we only moved 3 steps per half hour. lol. but was quite worth it. they are so shuai and friendly. hahas. the one on mon was so much better. quite organised and there were only ella and wu zun.

okay. drop this subject le. didnt really do anythin much these few days. been thinkin quite alot when walk passed the jetty. hai. nvm. ya. there will be no more time and chance anymore. hai