well. life's quite bored now. the reason may be quite obvious or not. seriously i dun see any good in mi now. rather ppl not to have mi around. just disruptin their life only. so this is the best decision. ppl going back to sch. good luck in ur studies. and to mi gettin results too.

jessie. now u cant say i MIA during holidays le. hee.

siaowei please cheer up. can call mi whenever u feel sad =)

forget it. wadever. i cant be bothered anymore. ppl please forget u had mi as a fren. im not a good fren. im gone. bye.

jessie siaowei i love u guys!

Yo ppl! im back. hahas. well. brought back wid mi illness too. been having fever and stomach-ache. runnin to the toilet for countless times. argh. i hate the toilet now. hahas. cant really eat anythin for the last few days. just abit of porridge. hmm. think i'll briefly talk abt my trip to malaysia. penang. hahas.

went last last thursday. first day didnt do much. went to eat. yipee! the food dere is fantastic. hor kian mee. guo tiao tang. laksa for those who really noe how to enjoy. but for mi. no thanks. hahas. char guay tiao and so on... hahas. dun think i'll say more. dun wan any saliva on the comp. lol. nth much to shop dere really. didnt even manage to buy any clothes back. boring. the most interesting part abt the trip was the trip to ipoh. we hired a van. travelled wid my family and aunt and cousins to ipoh. took ard 2 hours to reach. the caves dere was quite cool. the first few was mostly on buddism. wid the statues ard. ya. the last one was amazing. inside was pitch dark. err. not exactly. wid some lamps at the side. the cave was used by soldiers who were against the government in the past and on the wall of the caves were alot of codes. everythin inside was natural. the guy leadin us used a big torchlight pointin to all parts of the caves. on the walls of the caves. the rocks formed to be something. like a cat. mouse. drumstick. woman leg. and there was a so call paintin. formed by the urine and shit of the bats. ha. disgustin i noe. but it all dried up. its quite artistic actually. on some rocks. little bits of crystals were formed. its beautiful. but its too small. i doubt anyone can take them. hahas. my trip in the cave was only 6 rm i think. for 9 rm u could walk further on. the water underneath was crystal clear. feel like drinkin it but it cant be drank cos the water has been runnin for a long time. the rocks that wore off had somethin in them. think its calcium. theres too much in the water. so its not drinkable. anyway. u could pay 30 plus if u wanted to go all the way up the cave and come all the way down thru the water. its cool. but we had not much time and we didnt bring extra clothing. too bad. it would have been a nice experience.

hmm. dun think theres anythin more that is really interestin. basically the trip was okae but abit boring. the worse was being sick the last few days of the trip. hai. ohh well...

happy holiday everyone!

fark. i dunno wad to believe. i noe wad i saw.

perhaps everyone will be alot happier without mi entering their lives.


jetty. crown necklace. stadium.

its funny how it works, how we choose to keep out greatest fears closest to our hearts and everything else that's positive but somehow unknown to us furthest away. it's like we've somehow became an ignoramus of our own welfare and thoughts, feelings. strange, how everything associated wid failure seem to hold a significantly greater influence over us than our compliments. we've become victims of our own feelings and thoughts. how stupid it is, we've become trapped in our own spiritual quicksand, everytime we try to squirm free we are sucked in deeper. thinkin it is easier to give up rather than pushin ourselves on, unknown to us that success acheived at the end of the say overrides everything else that is sustained during the whole process. sure, it is from the failure that we learn and become a better person to our own standards, but why do we choose to keep living in the past, where not everything actually went according to plan, and how we let out past gravely influence our present and future. no one can move forward while looking behind, that's just a diaster waiting to happen inside of us, within us.

its even funnier, how failure in love gets us down, it's a feeling unexplainable to everyone. undesirable, how we are prevented from moving along with life because of these failures in love. the person you love may be furthest away physically but closest to your heart, unknown to them. it's like a fire burnin in your heart, and the only barrier which keeps this flame burning is the person you love. sometimes the person may choose to turn their back on you and extinguish this flame, and all of a sudden, your life crumbles and you feel like the world has collasped right before your eyes. suddenly, everything sems sober, black and white. it's as though you're in an enclosed room without light. you search for it to lead u out of the darkness but there's no such thing and soon enough the air becomes thinner and you die. in reality not physically, but mentally and emotionally. it robs you of your life , because you are so deeply wounded by the one you love. its like you wich you just die right there, because everything in life just seemed meaningless all of a sudden.

but, suddenly the flame is ignited once more and you feel that all is not lost. the person tou love seems to care, after all. but this could be the best thing that has happened in your life, or it could be the greatest decerption you'll ever face. deep inside, you know that although that link between you and the one you love has been restored, somewhat miraculously, the problems don't end right there. but who cares, love blinds. it can either give warm your heart tremendously or it can bite you right in your face.

its amazin how i pull thru the whole 4 yrs. at one point of a time during sec 3 i thought i'll remain there. its weird and stunning how it could be the last day of school and u dunno wad hit u. its the last day of sch and the start of the study break till O's. well well. im gonna stop rantin on and on abt studies.

prac was okae. chemistry was practically giving away marks on the observation part. was it 10 marks? think it was. and im dumb alright. not to do the graph. aww. got one of the part that i tot i didnt noe how to do right and i didnt write it down. ain't that stupid of mi! at least i'll get a few marks. forget it. its over. focus on the comin papers.

wad do i wan now. i'll add more if i can think of more. hahas

• pass the freakin o's
• get a fone instead of this lousy samsung one. i wan a flip one! LOL
• things to get better
• watch death note
• a tv wid holes to plug vcd player
• go tanning!
• go shopping. that's a gal's job. HA
• to clear this list. hee =)

there's a princess in every girl. yupp. i agree wid this statement (:(:

i wanted to write the long long blog everyone wrote in their blog. namin out everyone. but cant seem to complete it. so it'll keep it short and sweet. to the six of us. jessie ningsi siaowei jean and fen. i got to noe u guys better thru recess. well. fen and jean bah. cos jessie and ningsi are in the same class as mi. siaowei is in volleyball. the times we go out to shop. to bowl. i'll rmb them.

now for the clique. even though im not really close wid some of u. i still find u guys really fun to be wid and enjoy the moments wid u all. this group of ppl are the most crappy ones i ever known. hahas.

next the volleyball gals. i noe im not there regularly. regretted this greatly. but i really am happy to noe u ppl. its the sport that bring us all together. we started out not even abit united. but we ended up bondin and became really close. the games we played together are unforgettable. no matter wad. lets play together someday again.

whether i get to graduate this year or not. i'll not forget u guys! study hard for o level. its the last exam for us and we'll truely graduate and move on.

hold on together ppl. this is the song that was played on our graduation day. enjoy!

went to k box yesterday. sang alot. lol. so long didnt go out wid eelin xiao jie le lar. so busy now ps us le. lols. didnt go sch today again. hahas. think going tml. mock exams are so boring. hahas. how to concentrate wid the hall so hot and stuffy. lol

after doing my coursework for straight whole 15 hours. its finally done. thank u sooo much amilia! she helped mi alot alot. if not for her i think i'll still be doing. and she managed to finish her's today too. whoo! three cheers for her. hahas.

today didnt went well. horrible day for mi. havin a splittin headache now. thought of very much worse things to do to myself but didnt do it. i'll see my mood later i guess. if its still horrible. maybe a little pain or seein red liquid will help. HA.

enjoy ppl. i finally found the song i've been lookin for sooo long. the ghost of you and me by bb- mak =)