SMM was a breeze today. i actually finished the 3 hours paper in less than 1 hour. the 8 hours of study was worth it. hahahas. happy happy! i didnt really touch on eng. cuz i have no idea wad to study. lol. so i practically slacked the whole day away.

will be meeting wei and vaal for.....tml. hahas. i cant wait for all the plans. time to let loose! hahas. so many many events coming up and i wanna meet up with all my frens who i promise that i'll make time for.
zimei darling! i miss u too! stop saying i dun care bout u le la.
xiuhui also. i WILL ask u out too okay.
dun be sad la yuwen. the baby not that cute le okay. u'll be seeing more of me very very soon! hahas. happy? hehe (:

i wanna play to the max again! time to relax!!

dumb smses

tommy: u still dun wanna return me my jacket uh? like my smell is it?
me: since u like that say den i dun return le lor
tommy: u try and see
me: okay i'll try
tommy: i'll go to ur house and paint owe jacket pay jacket

how lame can he get. hahahas

while waiting for david to come. we bet that he doesnt know what message execution is. end up he really didnt know. what a disappointment! i lost a bottle of drink. LOL

i'll be meeting sixofus next fri!! the last outing was really fun!

oh ya. i feel like chunking my w910. its causing a really small problem for me. simply just by hanging.. lagging.. restarting on its own.. thats just abt it. i just saw this phone X1 on the SE webbie. seems really cool. should i get it? hahas. i'll work really hard during the loooong break.

danny on webcam with me. hahahs. random-ness!

元若蓝 吴忠明-心愿便利贴
词:陈静楠曲:方文良
唱片- ost-命中注定我爱你

一天一天贴近你的心
你开心我关心

一点一滴我都能感应
你是我最美的相信

等不到双子座流星雨洒满天际
先点燃九支仙女棒代替

最灿烂不一定要许多钻石黄金
看你眼睛有幸福的倒影

把你的讨厌宅急便送到天边
平凡的傻事用了心变成经典
存满满的心愿便利贴贴成无限
就是我们最富有的宣言

把你的喜欢每一天复习两遍
惊喜的预言我的天通通应验
你和我的心愿便利贴贴心里面
收集感动给以后怀念

等不到双子座流星雨洒满天际
先点燃九支仙女棒代替

最灿烂不一定要许多钻石黄金
看你眼睛有幸福的倒影

把你的讨厌宅急便送到天边
平凡的傻事用了心变成经典
存满满的心愿便利贴贴成无限
就是我们最富有的宣言

把你的喜欢每一天复习两遍
惊喜的预言我的天通通应验
你和我的心愿便利贴贴心里面
收集感动给以后怀念

daladala......

把你的讨厌宅急便送到天边
平凡的傻事用了心变成经典
存满满的心愿便利贴贴成无限
就是我们最富有的宣言

把你的喜欢每一天复习两遍
惊喜的预言都为你提早应验
你和我的心愿便利贴贴心里面
收集感动给以后怀念

一天一天贴近你的心
一点一滴我都能感应
你是最美的相信

i should just stop minding how ppl see me. as long as i know i still have many good frens ard me its enough.

yeahness! killer paper down. and ironically its the paper i have the most confidence in. funny. hahas. thanks to the lecturer. he made my life so much easier. hahahs.

thanks to all the good lucks im receiving (: u guys know who u are.

marketing tml. GOOD LUCK PPL! (:
meeting weiheng to study again later. better get some rest now. hahas

ya. letting go is never easy. and its not because of any conflicts. it just happened.. im just glad at least the intention was there to salvage though. the heart's not in the family anymore. there's no point saying so much. but i still wont let go of my hands.

i have no idea how to take the first step. but its difficult to change a person's impression when something alrdy happen before. plus we didnt know each other long enough to just trust each other's word even if there's no solid evidence. i really have no idea how to fill the gap thats getting bigger and bigger. im just not who i am showing myself now. i tend to keep quiet after incidents. those who know me well know this very clearly. i dun dare to take the first step too. so on surface maybe im portraying a really 'dao' image. of cuz i know words are not enough. but in this case. im really stuck.

its not simply just saying i'll do it. it doesnt mean not taking action means i dun mean these from the heart. it takes more effort to let those who doesnt know me well to believe. i dunno how to make the 'more effort'. cuz i nvr had to do anything for any of my frens to believe me before.

just some thoughts from me. im having difficulty putting them in words. even after writing its still not exactly how i feel.

but im thankful for so many many frens who can always be there assuring me

MY GOODNESS! i cant sleep again. guess there's been lots of stuffs in my mind recently. for now esp studies. i cant close my eyes without all the formats, alphabets, words and formulas coming to my mind. LOL

ytd was the worst man. i had less than a hour of sleep and i was gonna have my exam in the morning! tossing and turning on my bed and suddenly my phone rang at 3 plus. surprised. it was pei. she was near my place alone so the kind me invited her up so she doesnt have to stay out alone with the ghosts. hahahas. been so long since we chatted. kinda glad she msg me (: she played the scary game and i kept hiding behind my bolster. lol. tried sleeping and finally i fell asleep at 5 plus. unfortunately i gotta wake up at 6 plus. managed to drag myself out of my comfy bed in the end.

retarded SDX. lol

reached sch at 7 plus. damn early. but not bad. quite productive. but damn the paper. i chose the wrong chapter to study and 25 marks gone :(
thanks to tommy for his jacket. if not i would have freeze in the exam room. lol. i'll tell u if i had dreamt of u tonight not. hahahas.
got home feeling freaking dead tired. sleep for 2 hours plus and i got up to study again. hai! suppose to meet ng but end up didnt. sorry woman! hahas. u dun too sian den do stunt again uh. such a big reaction from u eh. hahahas

cheer up eve. there's nth much ppl can do for u to make u feel better but im sure u know ur frens will be there for u whenever u need them (:

had a talk with di. seems like everyone is aware of the problem. but is anyone willing to solve it or is there no way of solving?

is it so difficult for ppl to get along well with each other? so many things no matter how much effort i put in ppl still see it as the opp of the intention i had.

cant wait to meet up again with jessie sw fen jean and ning!

one paper down. four more to go. im dead tired now. hope i wont become a panda by the end of this week. cant wait for friday to come.

thanks to BFF again. she woke up early in the morning just to go thru accounts with me. though most of the time she's QUITE distracted la. hahahas!

this irritating uncle just cant stand still. first he tap his foot on the metal thingy causing so much noise. next he took out his slipper and place his leg on the rail. but it was a funny sight. managed to relieve me from stress a little.

suddenly i felt i shouldnt be so negative. i trust things will be good again one day. thats why we're called family. right guys? im not giving up on my family this easily. im still looking forward to doing the family shirt.

went out to study with siaowei and hend at sun plaza today. im so afraid i'll flunk accounts. thanks siaowei for coming out and drenching her bottoms for me instead of staying at home to sleep. one dumb thing she said in popular today. "home is the not coldest place." hahahhas. cuz it was damn cold today.

the two examples she used to tell me abt two girls. lol

spastic hend!

siaowei is up for a photo anytime. hahas

we're sharing one jacket

yw and shuang came over and that stupid shuang 'zong se qing you'. went to find j instead of staying with us. idiot! sw and hend went off so me and yw went over mac. studied awhile more there and bren came over to look for us.

i went off with a heavy heart just now. i was alrdy feeling down with all the stress and the thought of the family drifting apart worsen my mood. so am i suppose to go to the chalet alone? i knew di thru family. now we're all separated. and there's nth i can do...

one thing that lifted my mood was that i was thinking. everytime i met with problems. i will realise i still have many good frens ard me. thank u miss ng for initiating to teach me (:

and my BFF too! for being willing to wake up so early tml to study with me (:

MY GOODNESS! eelin is getting lamer and lamer everyday. and she BLAMES IT ON ME! just like sw they all always blaming me for changing jessie ho! lol. not my fault okay!!

hmm. i dunno how to start whatever i wanna say too. but i just dun like the feeling of drifting apart. hope things will ge better..

creative work of mahjong tiles by me yw shuang and bren

洗了脸 我看着自己
似乎忘了一些什么事情
我把手轻轻放进蒸气里
哼起了自己的旋律
想起你我不禁在此时想起你
于是我做了一个深呼吸
闭上眼 整理那片段的回忆
原来我们真的那么相近
That's More Than A Word (Than A Word)
我和你 (With My Hand)
眼神总是胜过言语
那一种默契 (I'll Believe)
连我自己都会觉得惊奇
(There are so many feeling Insids of me)
That's More Than A Word (Than A Word)
我和你 (In My Life)
总会有同一个表情
心中的决定(I'll Believe)
没有谁比我们更肯定
(比我们更肯定)
没有谁比我们更肯定 Oh Yeah
说不定
这就是一种心电感应
蔚蓝的天灰色的云
生活总会出现一些对比
只要把思绪紧紧地纠在一起
有你在总会让我安心 Oh Yeah
我的肩膀借给你
你的翅膀带我去
飞到梦想的新天地
这一次我一定牢牢抓紧
(这一次一定牢牢抓紧)
向世界证明我们的勇气 (的勇气)
如果可以
我愿意将你的泪
连悲伤一起抹去 (一起抹去)
Would You Come With Me
像自由的云
带着你去飞行 Oh Babe~
你还记不记得问过我什么东西(什么啦~)
一个很难懂的关系
什么叫做友情
我想从远古时代一直至今
它是一种力量 存在世界各地
却不是每个人都懂得珍惜
嗯 Let's Me Think About It
就这么告诉你
Oh~ 两个字叫相信
Trust (只有一个字耶!)
只要跟着自己的心 让我带你
带你是些莫宰的东西 啊嘻!
只要天气放晴
在这里就能看到木星
完美的梦想地别人都不能跟去
只有我 只有你
有一坚持到底
爱的世界 世界的爱
Here We Are One Love,PEACE!

im glad i talked to siaowei. its encouraging to hear things that assure me not to lose hope in friendship. this is the UGLY stickman she drew to replace some photo. LOL.

yeah. my BFF!! (: i miss her alot! this is part of the conversation we had ytd. damn stupid can. hahas

super siaowei. everything is fine le.. (: says (1:41 AM):
your -.- face really damn ugly

[c=62]#FELICIAACHAICHINN[/c] says (1:42 AM):
its nice lor

super siaowei. everything is fine le.. (: says (1:42 AM):
UGLY

super siaowei. everything is fine le.. (: says (1:42 AM):
lols

[c=62]#FELICIAACHAICHINN[/c] says (1:42 AM):
NICE!

super siaowei. everything is fine le.. (: says (1:43 AM):
UGLY!

[c=62]#FELICIAACHAICHINN[/c] says (1:44 AM):
NICE!

super
siaowei. everything is fine le.. (: says (1:45 AM):
UGLY LA

[c=62]#FELICIAACHAICHINN[/c] says (1:46 AM):
stop insisting u're right!

super siaowei. everything is fine le.. (: says (1:46 AM):
i didnt!

super siaowei. everything is fine le.. (: says (1:47 AM):
i insisted that it's UGLY

SIAOWEI IS SACRIFICING HER SLEEP FOR ME TO TEACH ME ACCOUNTS! thank u dear. see.. i announce it in my blog alrdy. happy? hahas

i feel so disappointed. this is the last time im dropping any tears for a friendship. feel so silly. ya. the feeling is not there le. i should get rid of the feeling too.


i feel sad cuz im choosing to give up on family too.


i hate it that im so weak. i promise im gonna learn to not give in to my emotions again